HOW CAN I REBEL?

I long to know what the apostle calls “living the life that is lived with Christ in God.” But I have been doubting whether it is possible. So few, apparently, seem to do it. So often the first fervor of their spirits grows weaker as more progress is made. And if it were possible, could I attain it? No, not I, but Christ working in me both “to will and to do of His own good pleasure.” He is able to make me a real Christian—a Christian whose life and conversation will be in Heaven. And I can cast my cares upon Him in perfect confidence; He is, My Saviour and Redeemer; My Shepherd, Husband, Friend; My Prophet, Priest and King; My Lord, my Life, my Way, my End. Through His merciful loving-kindness I believe I can say this in all sincerity: He has redeemed me from the bondage of sin and death. He has crowned me with the blessings of His love and mercy. He has set my feet in the path which leads to His Kingdom. He has given me the glorious hope of a portion of His inheritance. Oh! my heart cannot recount His mercies and His love. Though my feet often wander from the narrow way, how gently He lead me back, how mercifully he reproves me, how lovingly he increases my strength! How can I rebel against Him? Oh, Lord, you know the sinfulness of my heart, the pride, the impatience, the indolence, the rebellious thoughts that live there; therefore, I come to you for deliverance from them all. —Journal, February 25, 1852